The Sound of Terror

Daily Insight: 1/03/12

Dreams and visions are a fascinating source of much insight and wisdom. I have used them as a source of understanding for a couple of decades now, and they have taught me much of what I understand about the nature of consciousness. I define a dream as a story that emerges as we sleep, while a vision occurs while we are awake (although it could be in a state of deep relaxation).

There is an appendix in the back of my book Discover Your Soul Template which is a useful guide on how to understand dreams. One of the dream categories I outline is that of “Psychic projection dreams”. This category is equally valid for visions. This is where the mind will show you the nature of psychic energy you are exchanging with another person. Consciousness has an energy or vibration, and the mind will sometimes show you explicitly what that is.

I had a dream three nights ago which showed me very explicitly that my understanding is correct in regard to this category. In the dream I saw an older male relative of mine. Let’s call him Dave. In the dream he was sitting down with a guitar in his hands. This is a little peculiar, because as far as I know, Dave has never played a musical instrument. Yet the next event to unfold within the dream showed me that this guitar was a symbol, not a literal reality. Dave suddenly plucked one string of the instrument, and a vibration rang out – the energy of terror. A feeling of deep fear filled me as the energy permeated my own consciousness field.

The dream told me that my own mind was being badly affected by Dave’s projections. Having learned years ago to channel the psyche of others, I saw that he was attempting to disempower me through the projection of shame and derision.

Such projections occur unconsciously, of course, and Dave does not know what he is doing. However when one becomes aware of this level of mind, then it does become something of a problem. What can be done to shift the energy? The answer lies in the actual reason for the connection between Dave and I. When I was about 14, my father took a holiday from my father’s hot bread shop, and Dave took over for a few weeks. I worked there every morning before school and on weekends. During this time Dave took every opportunity to criticise and ridicule me, often deriding me in front of other workers. Being a shy kid, I just ‘took it.’ That brief period in my life created a wounding within me. It occurred just at the point where I was physically becoming a man, and much of the energy Dave projected at me was centred on shaming me for lack of masculinity. When I grew into adulthood, the development of my male power was affected by this shaming energy.

When this psychic drama occurred the other night, I saw it as an opportunity to heal that hurt. I allowed the 14 year old within me to feel all he needed to feel. It was a combination of a sense of shame, inadequacy and fear of ‘psychopathic’ males, but also a deep rage. I allowed this part of myself to have expression for a short time. Then I re-parented that inner child (I explain this in detail in Discover Your Soul Template). Again, this process is about allowing a particular vibration of energy to resonate through the mind/body/soul – again, like striking the right chord on a guitar. It is when that energy vibrates that it is possible to shift it. It unfreezes the trapped energy within the psyche, as long as we don’t become attached to the story surrounding it.

It is clear to me that there is a yet undiscovered energy involved in the projection of consciousness, and this recent dream gave greater weight to this belief. By ‘energy’, I do mean it in the scientific sense. Consciousness clearly contains field properties, but is not any of the four known forces of nature: gravity, the weak and strong forces, and electro-magnetism. I suspect it is related to them, and I do know from experience that it interacts with them. Psychic energy transcends space and time, which is one reason why I am pretty certain that it is not one of the other four forces.

It is said that when the student is ready that the teacher will appear. It is equally true that when the wounded child is ready to heal that the monster will appear! On the surface it may look like a bully persecuting a victim, but at a deeper level it is God’s grace in action. The catch is that in order to heal we must not assume the role of victim (and blame the monster); and we must be prepared allow whatever energy is contained in the event to express itself. And that may be, quite literally, painful.

Daily Insight: Disturbing

  

Daily Insight: 28.02.12
Last night I delivered a talk at the Grand Hyatt hotel in Shenzhen, southern China. The talk was called 'Becoming a Leader-Sage'. The audience was quite receptive, overall, and considering most of them were very practical-minded businesspeople, it was probably as good as could be expected.

One fellow there looked a little disturbed, however. In fact I'd go as far as to say he looked unhappy with proceedings. But it was not really an aggressive anger. It was more that the whole thing just seemed to disturb him. Later I found out that he was a Christian, which made his unsettled look understandable. The talk was centred around how leaders could use Integrated Intelligence to enhance their decision-making. I touched upon ideas like the extended mind, spiritual intuition, and even spiritual guidance. I also made reference to one of my own spiritual teachers, Jessica, who was a powerful and brilliant women with almost out-of-this world intuitive abilities some people would call 'paranormal' (although my position is that Integrated Intelligence is perfectly natural).

The organiser of my talk was a little concerned that the affected audience member seemed dissatisfied. He was worried, perhaps, that he might not return for the next event, or that he might say something negative about it.

Personally, I was not concerned. One of my goals in talking last night was to stir up the dust, and I said that quite explicitly at the beginning of the night! Quite often it is when we are confronted with that which is disturbing to our understanding that we become just unsettled enough to actually make a space for learning. Jessica herself often made this point, and really pushed people. Often her students fell over. Most got back up and were all the stronger and tougher for their bruises. But others didn't. They quit, or created so much drama that they were asked to move on!

I truly hope that my disturbed friend from yesterday somehow grows from his encounter with some 'alien' concepts. I truly feel compassion for him, having been disturbed more than a few times in my own life.

'May you live in interesting times', is a well-known Chinese curse. But then again, a worse curse might be, 'May you live in comfortable times, and always get what you expect.'